Life Sucks After College.
I am feeling like a scatterbrain today so I am just going to ramble for a bit and attempt to organize my thoughts. I am currently one month post-graduation and still confused as hell. I recently received my diploma that looks like a manila folder with calligraphy. I’m so glad that I paid thousands of dollars for a piece of paper that has yet to help me find a job in my field. All I want to do is write for a TV show where I can learn about the business and someday have my own show. I am just frustrated that I am back in retail after working so hard in college. Like what the hell?
I think a lot of this negativity is coming from the fact that I just returned from New York City and had so much fun that I didn’t want to leave. When I was in New York, I felt more at home. I felt like I could achieve more just by being in the city. When I’m in Pittsburgh, I feel like I’m stuck in a rut. I don’t feel like I can do anything but work in retail. I went on a few job interviews and all of them were for retail or childcare. I turned down a couple jobs thinking I would be able to get a job in the field right after graduating. Boy was I wrong. I went to an entertainment job fair about a three weeks ago and was simply told by a radio station that I didn’t have a shot in getting job in the business. I simply told them that I hope their station is re-programmed and that I am actually a Kiss listener. I am sick of people telling me I can’t do something. They don’t know. I know that people in Pittsburgh all have the dream of career, marriage and kids. That’s all well and good for them but that’s not exactly what I’m looking for right now. I am only 22 and I want to make a mark on the entertainment business and not by making an ass out of myself by exiting a car sans panties or checking into rehab 5 times within a year. That kind of crap doesn’t deserve opportunities. If you are given a chance to write a script or be anywhere near your idols you need to do everything in your power to not screw it up. Paris Hilton, Britney Spears, Lindsay Lohan…. The list goes on of “Fallen Stars”. I’m sick of reading about these people that should not even be near a camera making millions of dollars for being skanks. You should have to prove that you deserve to be in the business. If they were in the real world and pulling this drug use, drunk driving and abuse their asses would be in jail and out of the job. This is bullshit that these people get second, third, forth chances when someone nobody would be sitting in a jail cell with their roomy named Bernice.
I think the fact that I despise shows like The Hills and The Simple Life is because these girls are nothing but prissy bitches and this is the crap that kids are aspiring to be when they grow up. That’s a scary thought. I don’t want my little sister thinking it’s ok to make out with random guys, drink booze and smoke weed but it all being ok. This crap isn’t ok. I worked extremely hard in school to be competing with these prissy bitches. These girls are up till dawn partying while I’m up till dawn writing papers, stories and scripts. You should have to earn that lifestyle not have it handed to you because you’re friends with designers and actors.
I just read that Kirsten Dunst checked into rehab. Now this surprises me because I thought she cared about her work. I think that the people in this business that have all these issues is because the media is so crazy with up-to-the-minute-news. I don’t care who wore what to the Oscars or what. I find humor out of the tabloids making a big deal out of nothing. I think it’s funny that they create feuds between celebrities that don’t even know eachother. We need to celebrate the business by awarding those who do stay up all night to work on the craft and not their hairstyles.
If I have to work months in retail while I apply for jobs like crazy and write more that’s what I’ll do because I want to make people happy with my scripts and make them laugh. I’m sorry that I’m so angry in this entry but this crap really bothers me. I didn’t work hard for four years to be shoved to the side for some size 0 bitch with zero talent to get a job. I will continue to work hard, believe me.
